i'm feeling like i'm on the verge of a lot of things but not completely there with anything yet and i feel like i have a million things to say but i open my mouth (or my laptop) and nothing comes out. i feel, like usual, i do my best writing in my head and, unfortunately, it doesn't always translate and lately it kind of feels like it never translates. that makes me sad and frustrated and so i'm dealing with that, too. i'm also thinking about memory keeping and what that means to me and what it could or maybe should look like for my little family. i'm feeling all of these things and trying my best to not be overwhelmed or too sad. i'm remembering that in january i decided my word for this year is today and so i'm focusing only on what i can do today.
today, i drove to the park and knitted while annie slept (curse you, car naps!) and then we came home and i painted our exterior doors which have now been four different colors and may cause our neighbors to think i'm a smidge crazy but probably not because, man, they do a lot crazier things. also, today i edited photos i took of my little cousin for her senior pictures. i remember when she was born and the fact that her graduation year is two thousand and twelve is enough to make me feel really old. we made dinner that annie actually ate and she wore new pajamas to bed.
today, i did my best to take care of me and my people and tried my best to not feel overwhelmed or frustrated and i guess i would call today a success.